Consistency?

 I must not be the only one that says today will be different.

And then maybe it is but I know that it wont last very long and so I don't really feel any accomplishment, because what's the point? 

I know I will probably fall back into this bad habit tomorrow. Or maybe in a week. I see quotes like consistency is key, and successful people are consistent. So will I be successful if I can't be consistent? Will anything I do actually make a difference? 

Maybe consistency doesn't always mean doing the same thing every day. Though, that is part of it. 

Perhaps consistency is that drive. That drive that wakes up every day and says I really will do it! And then falls and fails and feels frustrated and still gets up the next day and tries. And feels like there's no point but still makes that call. Feels like there's no point but still tries. Consistently getting up again. Maybe not that day or the next. But eventually.

Perhaps consistentcy is feeling like there's no point yet still trying. 

I think that is real consistency. And eventually, I will see the point. Eventually if I keep doing it, if I keep trying something will crack. Something will work. Even if it's taking more time than I want. Even if it seems like everybody else is way ahead. Even if it just feels like there's a giant wall I can't climb. I consistently take another step every day whether it feels like it or not. Because I'm still trying.